Urgent Meeting

I might as well write while on my way to this meeting. Less than an hour ago I got a call to come to the organization's offices for an emergency meeting. When I asked what it was about they wouldn't say; all they said is that they didn't want to talk about it on the phone. I'm not sure if I'm going to my death or what. The only thing that this could be about is the two students who came to church with me last weekend. But how would the organization I work for know about it? Last night I joked that if they found out and sent me home then that'd be great. I don't want to have to say goodbye like that but I'm not going to apologize for letting the guys come with me. This is surreal. It could be the beginning of the end or it could be nothing. It's not probable that I got pulled from my last two classes for nothing though. Maybe this is because I said I wouldn't come to a meeting?

Okay there is really not anything else this could be for other than church. It's weird to be blogging this from the car as I'm on my way to the surprise meeting. My fingers are cold as its hardly above freezing. Mixed with nervous tension it's hard to type. I'm not sure why I'm nervous. Truthfully, I don't like conflict and knowing that I'm walking into one is tough. I'm at peace with my actions. Minus the classroom I have no regrets. I wish I was a better teacher. My shuttle bus has arrived.

After passing through security I'm now in the waiting area. I should have kept up with yoga so I could better control my breathing and heart rate. The bright red couches clash against the clean white walls and make my eyes hurt. I need to just close them and pray.

My Father in Heaven,
Your goodness is on going and your ways are pure. Your love for me is perfect and sufficient. Even when I try to do good, Lord your desires and plans are better and so far beyond my understanding. God, I trust you. You are faithful. Spirit you are my peace and comforter. Jesus. Oh my Savior and King. Thank you for your love oh God!